Sunday, October 24, 2010

Signing Fear

This is an interesting time for me. Any day now, I will sign a contract for my book. I'm just waiting for it to arrive in my mailbox. It's what every writer wants, right? Right! Of course! So why then, am I suddenly scared about the whole thing? I've worked hard for this. I deserve this. I know that! But I seem to have contracted a bit of "performance anxiety." I won't even give voice (written down) to my fears, my "what if's" and "but...'s." It's not that I'm superstitious or anything; I just simply don't want to give it a place to reside in my brain.

So, here's the deal. I've used this blog for lots of things; a sounding board, a journal or diary, a place to share feelings, and a place to look for answers. But what has always remained is that it is a blog about writing. It will continue to be just that. As always, Write Now-because it's later than you think, Karen


Lillie Ammann said...

I'm so excited for you, Karen! A little fear is normal anytime we face something new and exciting.

Karen L. Alaniz said...

Thanks, Lillie. Good to hear those words!

Leigh Russell said...

When you are writing, the book is 'yours'. Once it's published, it becomes public property and you have no control over how other people will react to it. That is terrifying - but be brave, I'm sure your book will be very well received. It sounds fascinating. So sit back and enjoy the ride! It's far more exciting than any other rollercoaster.