Wednesday, October 27, 2010
I have a busy life, OK - well, that's my excuse for now anyway. I got my first ever book contract yesterday and it took until evening before I opened it. I'm not sure why. I mean, I knew it was there for a few hours before I opened it. I was waiting for the perfect moment, I suppose. I don't think there's a perfect moment for things like this. I'd reveiwed the emailed version previous to this, so I wasn't expecting anything to surprise me really. Still, I should have ripped into that baby, right?
"This is it," I said to my husband and teenage son. "I'm opening my contract."
They glanced at me. I wasn't disappointed at their reaction though. Heck, I didn't know how to react so how in the heck could I judge their reaction?
I finally, very carefully and slowly tore off the FedEx strip from the top of the envelope. I took it out.
I had already reviewed the emailed version but this contract was shiny and new and pretty and symetrical. And STAPLED! Okay...random thoughts, I know. I have given up trying to figure out my reaction to this dream-come-true. My reactions make no sense; "I" make no sense. I read the cover letter, and then glanced at the first page. I looked up to see that my guys' eyes were glued to the T.V. again; the Boise State football game was on.
And the next thing I did, baffled even me!
I put the pretty contract back in the cardboard envelope and put it away. The end.
I do not understand my reactions to this whole thing. My friend, Chris says that I am in denial. Maybe so.
Anybody else want to analyze me? I think I need a therapist!