So the appointment took all of maybe three or four minutes. The x-ray technician was so nice and professional, and made me feel at home as I could with my...self...hanging out there. The squishing really wasn't bad at all. Did it hurt? Well, not really. It was just a pulling, tugging kind of thing...very uncomfortable though. But that part lasted like five seconds with each picture-four in all. So what's 20 seconds, even if it was painful? I left and went to 7-11 and rewarded myself with a bag of Doritos (the 99cent variety), and a BIG, THICK Reeses...yum! I told my husband that it seemed like someone should have a party for me or something, but when I got home there weren't any streamers hanging. Dang! Well, at least I tried.
But here's the bad news- I got a call from the hospital just now and they saw something on my left side. They want to do an additional mammogram with a magnifyer and then an ultrasound. Before the appointment, my doc. said not to worry about it if I got called back in as it is common with first mammograms. And when I left the mammogram, they gave me a little pamphlet that said the same thing and gave statistics on how rare it would be to actually have breast cancer.
My first thought when I got the phone call was, "Do you know my history of beating statistics like that?" I was in the "less than five percent" of people who don't heal from back surgery and require another. But I'm trying to let reason win out here. The gals in my family are "lumpy", so the mammogramologists say. This is probably nothing, right?
Why do I want to cry and why won't I let myself? I'm sure everything is fine. So much for writing about writing on this blog, huh?