Saturday, August 14, 2010

Analysis Paralysis

I can't take credit for the term-Analysis Paralysis - Thank you Randy - but never-the-less, it is so true. It's nothing new for me, actually, it's something that I clearly know well.

When I was freelancing, I would work on an article, edit like crazy, and then edit some more. And when I was done editing and it looked the best it could possibly look, I edited some more. I often found that once I had edited and, admittedly, over-edited, that I ended where I began. Yes, it's true. I ended up with very close to the exact words I had written after just one or two edits. And there was another problem. The editor's email typed into the space on the "to" box, my finger poised over the "send" button on my email, I was paralyzed. Yes, it's true. I could not hit that send button. I voiced my weakness on the website, Absolute Write and soon had many fellow writers to commiserate with. And the "Just Hit Send" thread was born. Over the next years, we encouraged each other to just do it; just get our work out there. And we were successful too. Many of us, me included, were published in regional and national magazines. Lesson learned. Right?

Not so fast. Fast-forward a few years. Add in an 8-year book project -- one that is the very heart and soul of who I am as a person. It is a project that only works when I add myself to it. I am brutally honest. It hurt to write it and it makes me cringe to read it; especially to my father. So much is riding on this book. I don't want to miss an opportunity to get it published just because I suck at writing the proposal, the synopsis, or the query letter. So again, that analysis paralysis has found a home. Currently, my manuscript has been requested by one agent and one editor. And I'm stuck. I've done the "edit until I end up back where I started" thing. I've done my research on proposal writing and synopsis writing and query writing. But it never feels right. And I guess, in writing this, I am realizing it will never feel right. And it's time to go back to that mantra, "Just hit send." So here I go. Wish me ... fingers that hit the send button faster than my brain can think. ~Karen


Anonymous said...

I'm rooting for you!!!!! ::hugs:: GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Karen L. Alaniz said...

Thank you, Jenny! Your hugs and well-wishes worked. Woot!